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Look at my room and it is a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess. Lock the door, make sure it is locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. Must make sure it is locked, locked, locked, locked, locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be locked, [it is fine] (shouldn't it?).
Too many things and yet not enough time, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough. Have to be quick. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Push it back, must make it square, must hear the clunk of it meeting, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it. Now to count, must make sure it stays, must make sure it is not out of place, not out of place, not out of place, not out of place, not out of place. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Move on to the next, must make it square, must hear the clunk of it meeting, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it. Needed to do more, must make sure it stays, must make sure there is more, there is more, there is more, there is more, there is more. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 3- . Lost my place. Where? Have to start again. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50. Must do it again, just to make sure, make sure, make sure, make sure, make sure. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50.
Hear a noise. Safe? Should be safe. Door locked, door locked, door locked, door locked, door locked. Windows? Grab the key, insert it. Must make sure it is inserted. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Twist, twist, twist, twist, twist. Twist back, make sure it is locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be locked, [it is fine] (shouldn't it?).
Hear a voice. Must go down. I can not, I can not, I can not, I can not, I can not. It is not nearly as straight, sorted, symmetrical. It needs to be exact, exact, exact, exact, exact. No time. Must hurry. Do it later. Must do it later, must do it, must do it, must do it, must do it. Shut door. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be shut. It should be alright. It should not go wrong. Always will, Always will, Always will, Always will, Always will..It never does go wrong, but it will go wrong, it will, it will, it will, it will. In an hour, tomorrow, next week, it will go wrong, it will go wrong, it will go wrong, it will go wrong, it will go wrong
Must tap bottom step with left foot. Right foot must not touch, must not touch, must not touch, must not touch, must not touch. Look around. So many people. Too many people. Must escape. Things will go wrong, go wrong, go wrong, go wrong, go wrong. Pressure. Can not breathe. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick. Must escape. Pressure. Can not get any space. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick. Must escape. Pressure. Can not talk. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick.
So many things not in order. It is not right, not right, not right, not right, not right. Fingers itch. Must make it right, must make it, must make it, must make it, must make it. Gust of air. Safe? Should be safe. Doors locked, windows closed, look around. Everyone left. Safe.
Go back to my room. Must not touch with right foot, must not touch, must not touch must not touch, must not touch. Door left shut. Safe. Open door, look at my room and it is still a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess. Lock the door, make sure it is locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. Must make sure it is locked, locked, locked locked, locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be locked, [it is fine] (shouldn't it?).
Too many things and yet not enough time, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough. Have to be quick. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Getting late, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now.
Too many things and yet not enough time, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough. Have to be quick. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Push it back, must make it square, must hear the clunk of it meeting, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it. Now to count, must make sure it stays, must make sure it is not out of place, not out of place, not out of place, not out of place, not out of place. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Move on to the next, must make it square, must hear the clunk of it meeting, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it, must hear it. Needed to do more, must make sure it stays, must make sure there is more, there is more, there is more, there is more, there is more. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 3- . Lost my place. Where? Have to start again. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50. Must do it again, just to make sure, make sure, make sure, make sure, make sure. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50.
Hear a noise. Safe? Should be safe. Door locked, door locked, door locked, door locked, door locked. Windows? Grab the key, insert it. Must make sure it is inserted. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Take it out. Insert. Twist, twist, twist, twist, twist. Twist back, make sure it is locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be locked, [it is fine] (shouldn't it?).
Hear a voice. Must go down. I can not, I can not, I can not, I can not, I can not. It is not nearly as straight, sorted, symmetrical. It needs to be exact, exact, exact, exact, exact. No time. Must hurry. Do it later. Must do it later, must do it, must do it, must do it, must do it. Shut door. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be shut. It should be alright. It should not go wrong. Always will, Always will, Always will, Always will, Always will..
Must tap bottom step with left foot. Right foot must not touch, must not touch, must not touch, must not touch, must not touch. Look around. So many people. Too many people. Must escape. Things will go wrong, go wrong, go wrong, go wrong, go wrong. Pressure. Can not breathe. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick. Must escape. Pressure. Can not get any space. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick. Must escape. Pressure. Can not talk. Too close. 100 200 300 400 500 600 700 800 900 1000 1100 1200 1300 1400 1500. Must be quick.
So many things not in order. It is not right, not right, not right, not right, not right. Fingers itch. Must make it right, must make it, must make it, must make it, must make it. Gust of air. Safe? Should be safe. Doors locked, windows closed, look around. Everyone left. Safe.
Go back to my room. Must not touch with right foot, must not touch, must not touch must not touch, must not touch. Door left shut. Safe. Open door, look at my room and it is still a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess, a mess. Lock the door, make sure it is locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. Must make sure it is locked, locked, locked locked, locked. 2 4 6, 4 6 8, 6 8 10, 8 10 12, 10 12 14. It should be locked, [it is fine] (shouldn't it?).
Too many things and yet not enough time, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough. Have to be quick. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Arrange, order, align. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Getting late, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now, must do it now.
Literature
atrophy of the mind
I've got two brain cells left;
one's standing still
and the other is chasing it.
a train
tied
to its tracks;
a plane crash
replacing
it.
a hemisphere
cut in half -
distance
in fractions
reviewed.
My mind is running down my face
and I can't find a cup
to catch it in.
life's
something that
keeps happening.
and, while
conscious (of this fact),
you think
(nothing)
of the moments
it's happening
to you.
My ears fell off a while ago,
if you are still talking
Literature
Destroy This Poem
Destroy This Poem
To the person grading this poem
To the kind, patient woman hovering over this with a pen
Waiting to say kind, patient words in response, do me a favor:
Stop it.
Don’t Patronize me.
I did not slave over this with hammer and anvil
Shaping it into a masterpiece.
I didn’t paint it onto the ceiling of some church,
Going blind from the pain and the stress.
I didn’t even turn this in on time.
And while I’m writing this in my fifth-period economy class,
You can bet I’m not concerned with iambs and troches and Italian terza rima.
No, I’m concerned with how much water is left in my water bott
Literature
the speed addict
the speed addict knows if he stops moving,
he will die. so when inertia takes hold
his heart falters and his head slams against
a future, lit by the dashboard. he hears
his veins stuttering like gears grinding out
a staccato refrain, while the wheel spins and
goes numb. as his breath twists away from his grip,
rasps a hollow plea, he slides on a rail
towards impartial angels leaving rainbow sparks
in his soaring wake, and meets blazing lights.
the addict dies twice. one is nev
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I had trouble trying to place this, so if someone knows, I would be grateful if you could direct me. The Artist's Comments will be long, just as a warning. 
I had OCD when I was younger, from probably 7/8 years old to 11. I don't know what caused it, but I guess it was a coping mechanism of sorts as I do not have OCD now, (having moved on to self harm after that), although I do still have tendencies towards it and I do have OCD-like behaviour/circumstances which are not as bad as it used to be.
I don't know how familiar you are with OCD. You may have heard that people repeatedly check locks, clean themselves, order things and so on. For me, it was ordering things, keeping everything neat, straight, exact. I remember counting a lot, as well, really quickly and sometimes again and again and again to get it right, because if I didn't, it felt wrong... it was wrong.
I don't remember it all or even why it would happen. One of my earliest memories is taking things from a drawer and putting it back in again, one at a time, in practically the same way, but straighter and more precise and exact (in my mind). Whilst others were playing games or having fun, I was counting and checking that things were right. Sometimes it would take the whole afternoon to just do a small section, but it would be something... I also used to hoard a lot of useless things which is another thing, I think.
It's just... reflecting on that has made me realise how I'm not 'normal' and I'll never be normal. I am... well, a fucked up person, really. I don't regret it, but I can't help thinking what my life would be like if it was relatively 'normal'.
I have OCD-like tendencies now, as well. I still like everything to be neat and tidy. Whenever I am presented with anything and I have the free will to do so, I'll immediately arrange it so that it is orderly in my eyes, and it will come naturally for me. I find peace in having everything in order and having... few amounts, in a way, to make it seem 'clean', when really, there is nothing there for it to be messy in the first place. Minimalist. I also won't do something because of a notion, but I'm not sure if you can call that OCD, exactly.
I've placed this piece in Fiction, because it mostly is fiction and I feel that pieces that are entirely Non-Fiction should belong in Non-Fiction. I have included the aspects of safety, even though it wasn't really an issue for me, and I have neglected to mention the cleaning and fear of contamination, as I feel that that is the most known amongst some others.
So yeah... I'm open to thoughts, and if you've managed to read all of this, kudos. It means a lot to me, and I appreciate it.
I had OCD when I was younger, from probably 7/8 years old to 11. I don't know what caused it, but I guess it was a coping mechanism of sorts as I do not have OCD now, (having moved on to self harm after that), although I do still have tendencies towards it and I do have OCD-like behaviour/circumstances which are not as bad as it used to be.
I don't know how familiar you are with OCD. You may have heard that people repeatedly check locks, clean themselves, order things and so on. For me, it was ordering things, keeping everything neat, straight, exact. I remember counting a lot, as well, really quickly and sometimes again and again and again to get it right, because if I didn't, it felt wrong... it was wrong.
I don't remember it all or even why it would happen. One of my earliest memories is taking things from a drawer and putting it back in again, one at a time, in practically the same way, but straighter and more precise and exact (in my mind). Whilst others were playing games or having fun, I was counting and checking that things were right. Sometimes it would take the whole afternoon to just do a small section, but it would be something... I also used to hoard a lot of useless things which is another thing, I think.
It's just... reflecting on that has made me realise how I'm not 'normal' and I'll never be normal. I am... well, a fucked up person, really. I don't regret it, but I can't help thinking what my life would be like if it was relatively 'normal'.
I have OCD-like tendencies now, as well. I still like everything to be neat and tidy. Whenever I am presented with anything and I have the free will to do so, I'll immediately arrange it so that it is orderly in my eyes, and it will come naturally for me. I find peace in having everything in order and having... few amounts, in a way, to make it seem 'clean', when really, there is nothing there for it to be messy in the first place. Minimalist. I also won't do something because of a notion, but I'm not sure if you can call that OCD, exactly.
I've placed this piece in Fiction, because it mostly is fiction and I feel that pieces that are entirely Non-Fiction should belong in Non-Fiction. I have included the aspects of safety, even though it wasn't really an issue for me, and I have neglected to mention the cleaning and fear of contamination, as I feel that that is the most known amongst some others.
So yeah... I'm open to thoughts, and if you've managed to read all of this, kudos. It means a lot to me, and I appreciate it.
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Well. That was a very frustrating read. But I forced myself to keep going unto the end; whereupon I realized, such was the whole point, huh? To make the reader 'understand' what it's like; even if only in the smallest way. It's made me realize too... I might have some aspects of this condition to my own personality..
The human mind... never ceases to fascinate me.
The human mind... never ceases to fascinate me.